Oh, WHEN WILL IT END?!?!?!

There are good days and there are bad days...

Sometimes i think that this bout with "paglilihi" is going to be during my whole pregnancy. But then there are days when I don't even feel like wretching. Which is like once or twice a week only :(

Today is NOT a good day... the minute i got up from bed i started to feel sick. How can that be?!?! I haven't even done or eaten ANYTHING yet!!! Aside from that, if i DON'T eat i feel sick... if i DO eat, i feel sick! ARGH!!!!!!!!! tangina ayoko na talaga!!

ok. i'm done venting.

Anyway, it's 730am... i'm here at the office.. not supposed to be here til 9am...

I need a life... or maybe my own car.

I've learned..

Thanks for this, Minette :)

I’ve learned – that you cannot make someone love you.
All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them.

I’ve learned – that no matter how much I care,
Some people just don’t care back.

I’ve learned – that it takes years to build up trust,
And only seconds to destroy it.

I’ve learned – that it’s not what you have in your life
But who you have in your life that counts.

I’ve learned – that you can get by on charm for about 15 minutes.
After that, you’d better know something.

I’ve learned – that you shouldn’t compare yourself
To the best others can do.

I’ve learned – that you can do something in an instant
That will give you heartache for life.

I’ve learned – that it’s taking me a long time
To become the person I want to be.

I’ve learned – that you should always leave loved ones with loving words.
It may be the last time you see them.

I’ve learned – that you can keep going
Long after you thin you can’t.

I’ve learned – that we are responsible for what we do,
No matter how we feel.

I’ve learned – that either you control your attitude
Or it controls you.

I’ve learned – that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first,
The passion fades and there had better be something else to takes its place.

I’ve learned – that heroes are the people who do what has to be done
When it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.

I’ve learned – that money is a lousy way of keeping score

I’ve learned – that my best friend and I can do anything
Or nothing and have the best time.

I’ve learned – that sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you’re done
Will be the ones to help you get back up.

I’ve learned – that sometimes when I’m angry I have the right to be angry,
But that doesn’t give me the right to be cruel.

I’ve learned – that true friendship continues to grow,
Even over the longest distance. Same goes for love.

I’ve learned – that just because someone doesn’t love you the way you want them
Doesn’t mean they don’t love you with all they have.

I’ve learned – that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you’ve had
And what you’ve learned from them
and less to do with how many birthdays you’ve celebrated.

I’ve learned – that you should never tell a child that their dreams are unlikely or outlandish.
Few things are more humiliating, and what a tragedy it would be if they believed it.

I’ve leaned – that your family won’t always be there for you.
It may seem funny, but people you aren’t related to can take care of you,
Love you and teach you to trust people again. Families aren’t biological.

I’ve learned – that no matter how good a friend is,
They’re going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.

I’ve learned – that it isn’t always enough to be forgiven by others.
Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.

I’ve learned – that no matter how bad your heart is broken
The world doesn’t stop for your grief.

I’ve learned – that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are,
But we are responsible for who we become.

I’ve learned – that just because two people argue,
It doesn’t mean they don’t love each other.
And just because they don’t argue, it doesn’t mean they do.

I’ve learned – that we don’t have to change friends
If we understand that friends change.

I’ve learned – that you shouldn’t be so eager to find out a secret.
It could change your life forever.

I’ve learned – that no matter how you try to protect your children
They will eventually get hurt and you will hurt in the process.

I’ve learned – that your life can be changed in a matter of hours
By people who don’t even know you.

I’ve learned that even when you think you have no more to give,
When a friend cries out to you, you will find the strength to help.

I’ve learned – that credentials on the wall
Do not make you a decent human being.

I’ve learned – that the people you care most about in life
Are taken from you too soon.

I’ve learned - that it’s hard to determine where to draw the line
Between being nice and not hurting people’s feelings
And standing up for what you believe.

Holiday season recap

Well, it's over! Back to normal life again....

I think this is one of the best holidays i've had in a long time. I got to spend Christmas Eve with my family... and New Year's Eve with my new one.

Christmas Eve
My cousin and her boyfriend came home from the states so we had a small reunion of sorts at my aunt's house in the South. It was fun... lots of gifts and with lots of FISH to eat! hahahahaha!

My cousin's boyfriend Ralph knew how to speak Spanish so my husband was...err...forced to speak to him. Jerome's not very confident when it comes to speaking the first language he learned as a child. Oh well... i think he did very well :) The highlight of my night was when I learned that my aunt had a magic sing! Well, let's just say it was a solo mini-concert. :)

New Year's Eve
We arrived at abuelita's house at around 6pm. We had spaghetti on hand which I didn't know was to be the main course for dinner. Lala's cooking was to be after midnight. Gabby was the star of the show! My bibo baby showed her talents almost the whole night long to the delight of all her lolo's and lola's.

Thanks to everyone who greeted me on my birthday and new year's eve! :)

next year...

There will be 2 more additions to the family... hmm... i guess playground na kelangan!

yuck

Have you ever felt like throwing up and yet hungry at the same time?

Lately... i've been an expert.

:(

Keeping my fingers crossed

Yes... that's right. The stork will come for a visit. This is what I was talking about in my previous blog.

Here's hoping for the best...

Torn

I have just received an early Christmas gift. To tell you the truth, I'm still torn if I like it or not. A lot of people say I should like it. A lot of people want gifts like these...I'm still thinkin' about it.... I know that eventually i will.. but for now... :(

No... i'm not materialistic. Eventually we will all know what i'm talking about. All i can say is... "HAAAAAAY BUHAY!"

This is my opinion... pakelam mo!

I dunno about you, but I really do not get why people flocked to the MYMP concert. I have nothing against the group, and yes they are talented.... But to have a full concert where a majority of what you sing are revivals?!?

C'mon....

Blast from the past

I got a text message from Elena asking me to meet up cuz Ferdie was in town. Ferdie is based in taiwan, so I immediately agreed! It was so nice to see them both again!! They got to meet jerome for the first time... and we were able to catch up on what's been going on in our lives.

When you try to live your life the best way you can, and you experince all these trials throughout the years, it changes you. You adjust to whatever life throws in your direction. All this time, i have forgotten who I was. How I was. Being with these two again reminded me of how life was when it was simpler. Not necessarily happier, no... just.. different. These two knew me way back in college and it was nice to hear from them that I haven't changed.. well.. i have changed..

thank you for reminding me who I was :)

Back to reality

I've been in Manila a week now.. We arrived on a Wednesday, and didn't need to be at work til Monday.. so I had 4 days to spend with the fam..
Not a day was wasted! Everyday we went somewhere. It was nice being with my hubby and baby again after a couple of months. We bought a new digicam.. hence the new friendster photo :)

Anyway, the happiness came to an end when my baby got sick after our long rainy weekend. She's still sick, but hopefully she will get better... I feel partly at fault. She probably tired out over the weekend.

Love you baby gabby!

Manila, I'm coming home!

We are now on our last week, and I AM LOVIN' IT!! I can't wait to go home and see my family!!! I am now LITERALLY counting the days... it seems longer to get this whole week over with than the 2 months! I'm planning to go straight to "dampa" from the airport! It'll be dinner time anyway... yum!! jollibee...tapa king... Gerry's... HERE I COME!!!!!!!!!!!
obvious ba na ang takaw ko? :)

Let's sing! "Hinahanap hanap kita Manila, and himig mo'y kay sarap sa tenga... Mga jeepney mong nagliliparan... mga babae mong nag gagandahan (pauwi na!heheheh)..."

Truly Memorable

Sydney was fun! The Opera house was really breathtaking. I've only seen it on TV and magazines, but seeing it for real was really something... I was even tempted to watch one of the plays they had going on inside.. but it was too expensive, so I settled for picture taking :)
We also went to the Sydney Aquarium at Darling Harbour. At first I thought it was pretty corny. But once you're inside, it was nice. Especially the last part where you get to stare at the big 'ol aquarium full of different fishes and other stuff.

The food in Sydney was also good! Seafood places everywhere! It was DEFINITELY the highlight of my trip. Which is hard to measure because we are having so much fun here. Well, I'll be posting more Sydney pics soon! Hopefully, the next blog is about going home! :) YIPEEEEE!!!

Counting the days

Ok. It's September. I am now officially counting the days til I go home. I'm now optimistic because I know that it won't be long until I'm with my family again!! People tell me not to count the days because it will seem longer... I don't care! Til then, I will enjoy myself here. Next week we will be going to SYDNEY!!! Yahoo!! 4 days of rest, relaxation, and sightseeing! I can't wait! After that, 3 more weeks.. then I go home!!!

Here's a few pics on our first gimmik night @ Brekky Creek. One already posted.

http://photobucket.com/albums/a54/katy_mae/

The Aussie Life

Well, we're on our third week... almost halfway there. We're all getting used to the 'aussie life'. Walking everywhere.. not eating rice everyday, and watching Big Brother and Australian Idol. Work is work. Don't really wanna comment on that, but the trainers that we have are just GREAT. They are SO FUN and down-to-earth. Willing to spend their weekends with us, and welcoming us to their homes. They're FANTASTIC! :)

We've been having a great time here and they are one of the reasons why. We really have to return the favor when they go to manila!

Brissy

That's what the people here call Brisbane. Well, 1 week down, 8 more to go. I'm counting the days til I see my family again. In the meantime, I have been advsed over and over again to just enjoy the trip.. which is what i've been trying to do. Keeping myself busy with training, and other stuff :)

We were supposed to go home for a week, but we were only given single entry visas, so it was decided that we just stay for the whole 2 months. What are we going to do during our break? Well, we're going to Sydney! Our clients will be sending us to Sydney for a few days of R&R. Accomodations, food and transportation will be taken cared of.... we are all so thankful.
In the meantime, here I am texting and calling away like there's no tomorrow. I am now a vodafone/optus user. Texting has been my comfort. It's the main line of communication I have with my family back home.

Yes, all i do here is EAT!!! I have been living like a PIG for the past week! I really need to slow down. hahahaha. It's a good thing that it's australian culture to walk everywhere so I get to do some exercise.

Everyday we go to the office (10 minute walk from the apartment) at 830 and stay there til 430. Then it's free time! Well, that's my trip so far.. check out my friendster for some pics.. and I've posted the link to yahoo photos on the bulletin board.

I miss everyone terribly... Hope everyone is surviving without me! hahahaha

It's official...

I will be leaving for Brisbane this friday night. Will be staying there for 2 months, with a 4 day leave in between. I'm going to miss my baby and hubby soooooo much!! :(

I was told that we have a full itinerary during our stay.. even on weekends. So I guess that's good. Won't have to dwell on my depression of being away from the fam..

It's my first time going down under. I hope it's a nice visit. Of course, I'm there to work too.. Let's not forget that! I've been looking up some stuff about Brisbane, and it seems like a cool place. I also like the place where we're going to live. It looks good on pictures, let's see if it's the same in actuality.

Getting back in the groove

After 4 days of not being in the office, i am trying to catch up on things. Although I was able to answer some work email from home, I still have a lot of cathing up to do.

Was admitted at St. Lukes last Monday. It was just a minor procedure. Spent 10 hours in the hospital and was eventually sent home. Hubby was waiting... not the whole time, but he waited. I felt special because he HATES waiting... and he had no choice! hahahaha!

He stayed home from work, and took care of me. I thought he was sweet because he slept between me and the baby so gabby couldn't kick me... He got up at night and brought me my medicine along with a glass of water (awwww). He even gets mad when I carry heavy stuff cuz I'm not supposed to.

I know.. I know.. i'm over-reacting. But he rarely does things for me, so these little gestures I appreciate :)

I'm gonna miss gabby and hubby sooo much if/when I leave :(

Unexpected 3-day weekend

Yay!! :)

To the people who are moving on.. you know who you are.. Enjoy the new challenges ahead! I will miss you guys...

It's 3:30 am. My baby's sleeping on my lap, chatting with hubby, and I'm hungry. Haven't had anything to eat since lunch.... ala lang.

Identity Crisis

I was having breakfast with two of my agents the other day, when we saw a couple. They were very sweet.. holding hands.. whispering sweet nothings to each other, when I saw what the couple were. One gay and lesbian. The lesbian looked like a guy, and the gay one looked like a girl. I mean, it was ok, but it kinda confused me. What's the point on being a third sex, when you will be with someone from the opposite sex anyway?

Oh well, at least they can get married and have kids :) (buntis si daddy!)

Song Recommendation

I'm a hiphop/r&b girl through and through. But there are times, there's a song from a totally different genre that takes you to another place altogether.

Please download this song here: http://www.mp3shits.com/download_mp3/Lifehouse_Moved_By_You_mp3/760359/ (Right click, choose "Save Target As")
Good lyrics. Good music. 'Nuff said.

Everything
by Lifehouse

Find me here
Speak to meI want to feel you
I need to hear you
You are the light
That is leading me to the place where I find peace again
You are the strength that keeps me walking
You are the hope that keeps me trusting
You are the life to my soul
You are my purpose
You are everything
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this
You calm the storms
You give me rest
You hold me in your hands
You won’t let me fall
You steal my heart and you take my breath away
Would you take me inWould you take me deeper now’cause you’re all I want
You are all I need
You are everything, everything

Clue in

It's been a while since I last updated this thing... here's a quick summary:
A very short vacation somewhere cold..Every day at work is a clone of the previous one.A new schedule that's repulsive. I'm counting the days to normalcy.
..and most important update of all...

GABBY STARTED WALKING... the feeling of seeing your first born take her first steps is surreal. Which reminded me of this quote:

"You spend the first 2 years of their life teaching then to walk and talk. Then you spend the next 16 telling them to sit down and shut-up!" :)